To Let Live or To Let Be?
Finally Sylvester's judgement day is what seems to be around the corner. Sylvester's been rather sickly for the past two weeks or so... He's lost weight and has gotten more lifeless. He refuses to eat and to play... even offering him people's tuna fish didn't interest him. Since he hasn't been eating, I've stopped his insulin injections for two days already. What he did eat, came back out in either case.
I took him to see Dr. Kaufman the first thing yesterday morning (10/15/2006). I skipped my sunday class and still had to wake up early. I'm so tired these days...
After informing the doctor of Sylvester's recent health changes and what I thought it may be this time, the doctor asked to keep Sylvester at the clinic so they could run some lab tests on him. About an hour later, the prognosis wasn't good.
Dr. Kaufman said, "Sylvester's kidneys over the summer wasn't great, but wasn't too bad either", but over the past two months, things have changed. "Sylvester's kidneys are pretty bad. We are trying to determine whether he has any kidney functions left at all." So, over the next three days, Sylvester would be dropped off at the clinic in the morning and picked up at night, so they could monitor his kidney functions.
After seeing how he hasn't eaten in a day and a half, I decided to force feed him yesterday night as advised by the doctor. I first used a syringe to inject tuna juice into his mouth and then ended up spoon feeding him small clumps of tuna meat. I managed about a little more than a tablespoon. Sylvester of course was kicking and squirming with what little strength he had left in his frail body.
He's taken up residency in the bathroom and won't budge one single bit from the bath mat, unless he had to use the litter box. His hind legs are dragging a bit like it did about 3 years ago when he was diagnosed with diabetes.
So, the wait begins... in three days time I would know whether this time next week he would still be here. If it is determined that he still has some kidney functions left, I would have to inject him for 5 minutes a day with liquid under the skin below his neck. The liquid is suppose to help flush out the toxins in his blood and kidneys... think of it as kitty dialysis... If it is determined that he has no kidney functions left... well... euthanasia is the solution... "It is not a pleasant way to go with kidney disease. Some tough decisions would have to be made."
I seem to still go about doing my own thing for the past two days after knowing the prognosis... I've even cooked two meals yesterday... I think it's because I'm trying not to think too much about it. But, my eyes can't seem to stop tearing as I write this blog. I will miss him very very much. I don't want him to go. He's the only constant good in my life it seems... but I don't want him to suffer as well... if he must go, I will spend some time with him and then let him go gently... He's been in my life for 15 years... exactly half my life. He stuck around through thick and thin and brought great joy to my life and to the lives of other's. I still can't picture my home without him... he's like a fixature that makes a house a home. In all his silly ways... he's my love.
He's been a good kitty... I know the Lord would let him in... may it be quick and with peace... I love you Sylvester.
I took him to see Dr. Kaufman the first thing yesterday morning (10/15/2006). I skipped my sunday class and still had to wake up early. I'm so tired these days...
After informing the doctor of Sylvester's recent health changes and what I thought it may be this time, the doctor asked to keep Sylvester at the clinic so they could run some lab tests on him. About an hour later, the prognosis wasn't good.
Dr. Kaufman said, "Sylvester's kidneys over the summer wasn't great, but wasn't too bad either", but over the past two months, things have changed. "Sylvester's kidneys are pretty bad. We are trying to determine whether he has any kidney functions left at all." So, over the next three days, Sylvester would be dropped off at the clinic in the morning and picked up at night, so they could monitor his kidney functions.
After seeing how he hasn't eaten in a day and a half, I decided to force feed him yesterday night as advised by the doctor. I first used a syringe to inject tuna juice into his mouth and then ended up spoon feeding him small clumps of tuna meat. I managed about a little more than a tablespoon. Sylvester of course was kicking and squirming with what little strength he had left in his frail body.
He's taken up residency in the bathroom and won't budge one single bit from the bath mat, unless he had to use the litter box. His hind legs are dragging a bit like it did about 3 years ago when he was diagnosed with diabetes.
So, the wait begins... in three days time I would know whether this time next week he would still be here. If it is determined that he still has some kidney functions left, I would have to inject him for 5 minutes a day with liquid under the skin below his neck. The liquid is suppose to help flush out the toxins in his blood and kidneys... think of it as kitty dialysis... If it is determined that he has no kidney functions left... well... euthanasia is the solution... "It is not a pleasant way to go with kidney disease. Some tough decisions would have to be made."
I seem to still go about doing my own thing for the past two days after knowing the prognosis... I've even cooked two meals yesterday... I think it's because I'm trying not to think too much about it. But, my eyes can't seem to stop tearing as I write this blog. I will miss him very very much. I don't want him to go. He's the only constant good in my life it seems... but I don't want him to suffer as well... if he must go, I will spend some time with him and then let him go gently... He's been in my life for 15 years... exactly half my life. He stuck around through thick and thin and brought great joy to my life and to the lives of other's. I still can't picture my home without him... he's like a fixature that makes a house a home. In all his silly ways... he's my love.
He's been a good kitty... I know the Lord would let him in... may it be quick and with peace... I love you Sylvester.
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