From a Distance
During lunch today, I took a walk to Battery Park and sat in front of the waters watching Lady Liberty from a distance... thinking about things. I was mostly thinking of significant others who departed me in life. When I say "significant others", I am not just referring to our partners in life and when I say "departed", I don't necessarily mean physically either.
A co-worker of mine and I were talking about how sometimes we get a strange vibe that a significant other is there, but really isn't. He was telling me how he was in the kitchen at home over the weekend and could have sworn his ex-wife was about to walk through the front door of his new apartment. He dropped the dishes he was washing and started to get teary eyed.
When Sylvester passed away, my roommate and I both shared weird experiences where we could have sworn that Sylvester was brushing up against us when we were in the dining area. I also kept on "seeing" Sylvester laying on the sofa from the corner of my eye. I even occasionally "heard" him outside my bedroom door.
I guess one way we know who are dear to us is when we think about them daily, regardless if we talk to them on a regular basis. I dream of my significant others often. Often these dreams are happy dreams and sometimes they involve fulfilled desires that never occurred in reality. Weird isn't it? I sometimes see dreams as an extension of reality. Scary as it may be, but haven't you ever woke up from a dream feeling overwhelmed before... as if it really did happen?
Sometimes my dreams of my significant others drive me to want to be closer to them, but that is also where it can be quite emotionally damaging; at least for me. The non-mutual response can be a real downer. I have many significant others in life, not all of them know it or feel the same. I guess it is hard not to wonder why others may not feel the same when you have exceedingly expressed so. Life works its wonders in mysterious illogical ways that are not meant to be understood, but experienced in its multi-facets.
I guess the point of this blog... I actually didn't have one when I started writing... is to value your significant others when they are still around, else you too will be "watching" them like I watched Lady Liberty from a distance.
A co-worker of mine and I were talking about how sometimes we get a strange vibe that a significant other is there, but really isn't. He was telling me how he was in the kitchen at home over the weekend and could have sworn his ex-wife was about to walk through the front door of his new apartment. He dropped the dishes he was washing and started to get teary eyed.
When Sylvester passed away, my roommate and I both shared weird experiences where we could have sworn that Sylvester was brushing up against us when we were in the dining area. I also kept on "seeing" Sylvester laying on the sofa from the corner of my eye. I even occasionally "heard" him outside my bedroom door.
I guess one way we know who are dear to us is when we think about them daily, regardless if we talk to them on a regular basis. I dream of my significant others often. Often these dreams are happy dreams and sometimes they involve fulfilled desires that never occurred in reality. Weird isn't it? I sometimes see dreams as an extension of reality. Scary as it may be, but haven't you ever woke up from a dream feeling overwhelmed before... as if it really did happen?
Sometimes my dreams of my significant others drive me to want to be closer to them, but that is also where it can be quite emotionally damaging; at least for me. The non-mutual response can be a real downer. I have many significant others in life, not all of them know it or feel the same. I guess it is hard not to wonder why others may not feel the same when you have exceedingly expressed so. Life works its wonders in mysterious illogical ways that are not meant to be understood, but experienced in its multi-facets.
I guess the point of this blog... I actually didn't have one when I started writing... is to value your significant others when they are still around, else you too will be "watching" them like I watched Lady Liberty from a distance.
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