Tired
I'm tired... I've been tired this whole week... it seems that work is a never ending process for me. The faster I work, the more calls and requests I get.
This tiredness kinda put a freeze on my brain... I can't seem to blog. :(
What's on my mind...? (Not in any particular order or importance...)
- Sylvester's 1 yr anniversary is coming up in less than a month. I still haven't finished the original blog about the night we spent together trying to comfort each other over the inevitable.
- I'm meeting my contractor this saturday morning to discuss some work to be done... more money to be spent.
- Cookies for a roomie... he's out of town now. :)
- Refinishing 2 bathrooms.
- Birthday gift.
- A special dinner to be cooked.
- My sister and her family down in Florida.
- Plans for when my ex comes next month.
- The next steps to my job search. I haven't heard anything yet.
- Things to buy tonight at Homo Depot in between dinner and gym.
- The past Mid-Autumn Festival...
- My car... a headlight won't stay on.
- My prayers...
- Tomorrow...
- Life...
- The people who are dear and near to those that are dear and near to me. Second degree of separation here...
- What am I doing with my life now... today... that's benefiting me tomorrow?
- My future kids... future hubby... future home... the future...
- Our women/men at war.
- Diseases.
- Hunger.
- Where's my Angel in Disguise?
- Daydreaming of a happy fulfilled life.
- Why are there people out there looking for friends and deep friendships, but can't offer the same to others themselves, yet don't realize this?
- Sex - what's it like again??
- Will I ever get a six pack with all the junk I stuff in my face because it makes me feel good?
- How do others see me? Am I worthy of anything?
- Thinking about someone and how I could help without seemingly stepping over the line in caring... which becomes nagging.
- My poor plants... I've been neglecting them... all of them. :(
- Taking a leap of faith...
- Getting over the fear factor of breaking or losing my iPod. The fear does not originate from monetary reasons... it's the significance of the iPod.
- Remembering to pay my bills on time... got hit with a $60 penalty again...
- Managing my cashflow carefully.
- Wondering if all my roomies are happy and satisfied.
- Should I get a pet hamster? I need something fluffy to pet.
- Should I just pick up and go in life... or is that running away...? A reoccurring theme for me in the recent years.
- I want to see the world through my eyes, then through the eyes of natives... but, I don't want to do it alone.
- Is there an other half to me out there? If so, will this other half make me whole?
Anyway... I have to leave now... I have to head home... then to the gym... but of course, I have to stop by Homo Depot for home supplies...
This tiredness kinda put a freeze on my brain... I can't seem to blog. :(
What's on my mind...? (Not in any particular order or importance...)
- Sylvester's 1 yr anniversary is coming up in less than a month. I still haven't finished the original blog about the night we spent together trying to comfort each other over the inevitable.
- I'm meeting my contractor this saturday morning to discuss some work to be done... more money to be spent.
- Cookies for a roomie... he's out of town now. :)
- Refinishing 2 bathrooms.
- Birthday gift.
- A special dinner to be cooked.
- My sister and her family down in Florida.
- Plans for when my ex comes next month.
- The next steps to my job search. I haven't heard anything yet.
- Things to buy tonight at Homo Depot in between dinner and gym.
- The past Mid-Autumn Festival...
- My car... a headlight won't stay on.
- My prayers...
- Tomorrow...
- Life...
- The people who are dear and near to those that are dear and near to me. Second degree of separation here...
- What am I doing with my life now... today... that's benefiting me tomorrow?
- My future kids... future hubby... future home... the future...
- Our women/men at war.
- Diseases.
- Hunger.
- Where's my Angel in Disguise?
- Daydreaming of a happy fulfilled life.
- Why are there people out there looking for friends and deep friendships, but can't offer the same to others themselves, yet don't realize this?
- Sex - what's it like again??
- Will I ever get a six pack with all the junk I stuff in my face because it makes me feel good?
- How do others see me? Am I worthy of anything?
- Thinking about someone and how I could help without seemingly stepping over the line in caring... which becomes nagging.
- My poor plants... I've been neglecting them... all of them. :(
- Taking a leap of faith...
- Getting over the fear factor of breaking or losing my iPod. The fear does not originate from monetary reasons... it's the significance of the iPod.
- Remembering to pay my bills on time... got hit with a $60 penalty again...
- Managing my cashflow carefully.
- Wondering if all my roomies are happy and satisfied.
- Should I get a pet hamster? I need something fluffy to pet.
- Should I just pick up and go in life... or is that running away...? A reoccurring theme for me in the recent years.
- I want to see the world through my eyes, then through the eyes of natives... but, I don't want to do it alone.
- Is there an other half to me out there? If so, will this other half make me whole?
Anyway... I have to leave now... I have to head home... then to the gym... but of course, I have to stop by Homo Depot for home supplies...
posted by Sparky X | 4:38 PM
3 Comments:
Man, stalking you is a lot of work. You update frequently. :-) But i like reading your writings, so don't stop posting.
Hey buddy, i was just thinking. I feel like we become conditioned to accept society's ideas on what it truly means to be happy. You don't have to agree with me. But i think that the more things we want, the more trouble we get ourselves into. I just hope i can retire to a small but cozy home off in hawaii when i'm old. I can surf all day (hopefully i've learned by then) and breathe in the fresh air 24/7.
I think it's hard to ever be completely content with life and i think that we can blame ourselves for letting society tell us how to be happy.
I'm not trying to say that the things u want are irrelevent or illogical. Just reminding you that we have a lot of control over our feelings of being content.
Maybe you've just been having a crappy week. Crappy weeks come and go..and so do crappy feelings. :-)
You're a busy guy with a lot of busy thoughts running through your head. I recommend Tai Chi or or forms of meditation. Closing your eyes and taking a few deep breaths during different parts of the day might also help slow things down.
And i hope you meet many angels in disguise wherever you go. :-)
Stalk you later.
hey stalker... whoever told you that stalking me is an easy task? lol... but, I'm glad that you are stalking me... makes me feel "wanted"... lol... (Side note: Have you ever ready the book "The Unwanted" by Kien Nguyen? I highly recommend it to you. :))
I understand what you are talking about when you are refering to the fact that many of us are conditioned to accept society's ideas on what makes us happy. These are generally the things that I avoid or consciously reassess whether if they fall into "my ideals" in life.
When you said, "we have a lot of control over our feelings of being content", I immediately thought of monk-hood... I think they do a great job at doing that. And with the monk in me, I normally make out okay too. :) Not "make-out", but "make out"... lol...!
Maybe I am having a crappy week and I'm glad that crappy weeks come and go; taking with it the crappy feelings. :) If it didn't, that would be a problem. lol...
Yeah... I've been quite busy on many fronts in life.. some good, some just troublesome, and some just brought on by myself.
Thank you for your tips in slowing down during the day. I brought in my cookbook today to read during lunch time. That's how I plan to slow down today. Somehow looking at all those yummy pictures of food calms me down. :) The title of the cookbook is "Slow Cooker Recipes", how appropriate...! :)
Thanks again my Internet angel in disguise... :P
I love food, gives me a reason to wake up in the morning and slave the kitchen till night. :-D whatever gets us through the day right?
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