"I'm glad I did something..."
Yesterday was Clarisse's first day back to work after being away for about a week and a half. She was away caring for her mother. Her mother passed away from breast cancer two Fridays ago. She struggled for many years.
I wish there is a drug or a treatment that can rid cancer from the body. One would think that after so many years of research that we would have a cure or a vaccine by now. We still don't. How sad is that? As I was signing a card prepared by our administrative assistant for Clarisse, I learned that her mother was also fighting breast cancer. She started to get teary eyed when I told her Clarisse's mom's cause of death.
I prayed for Clarisse's mom in the past year and almost everyday for the past two weeks... I also prayed for Laura's mom. I was hoping that Clarisse's mom would be able to make it to June of this year to see Clarisse walk down the isle at her wedding... her wedding was originally scheduled for August. I wish she could have made it. I'm sure she would have been so happy to see her daughter all dressed in white, in a beautiful grown that she had bought for her.
Clarisse is being quite strong... but mostly spaced out at work... during lunch yesterday, she was telling me how she was happy that she was at least able to do something for her mom while she was so sick at the hospital. She had to hold her mom's arm up in the air above her body for the pain in her arm to subside for over 30 minutes each night so she could fall asleep. The cancer had spread to her liver and to the rest of her body. "I'm glad I did something..." When I heard that, I wish I could have said the same when Sylvester passed.
As I acknowledged that I was also glad that she was able to be there for her to DO something for her mom, I myself got all teary eyed. I wasn't able to do anything for Sylvester. Not a single thing the night leading to his death. I know I still haven't finished the entry that I started months ago regarding Sylvester's last night with me. I still have a hard time putting it all in words.
Today is Sylvester's 5th month anniversary of his passing. I lit a candle for him yesterday night and I told him that I was sorry. "I'm sorry."
I wish there is a drug or a treatment that can rid cancer from the body. One would think that after so many years of research that we would have a cure or a vaccine by now. We still don't. How sad is that? As I was signing a card prepared by our administrative assistant for Clarisse, I learned that her mother was also fighting breast cancer. She started to get teary eyed when I told her Clarisse's mom's cause of death.
I prayed for Clarisse's mom in the past year and almost everyday for the past two weeks... I also prayed for Laura's mom. I was hoping that Clarisse's mom would be able to make it to June of this year to see Clarisse walk down the isle at her wedding... her wedding was originally scheduled for August. I wish she could have made it. I'm sure she would have been so happy to see her daughter all dressed in white, in a beautiful grown that she had bought for her.
Clarisse is being quite strong... but mostly spaced out at work... during lunch yesterday, she was telling me how she was happy that she was at least able to do something for her mom while she was so sick at the hospital. She had to hold her mom's arm up in the air above her body for the pain in her arm to subside for over 30 minutes each night so she could fall asleep. The cancer had spread to her liver and to the rest of her body. "I'm glad I did something..." When I heard that, I wish I could have said the same when Sylvester passed.
As I acknowledged that I was also glad that she was able to be there for her to DO something for her mom, I myself got all teary eyed. I wasn't able to do anything for Sylvester. Not a single thing the night leading to his death. I know I still haven't finished the entry that I started months ago regarding Sylvester's last night with me. I still have a hard time putting it all in words.
Today is Sylvester's 5th month anniversary of his passing. I lit a candle for him yesterday night and I told him that I was sorry. "I'm sorry."
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